Its hard to express how you feel sometimes to someone…when you miss them but you can’t tell them because you don’t know if they miss you back… Nothing was ever promised and I know we’re just friends , but why do I feel like this…if only you knew, knew how I really felt.
A good friend is leaving for Seattle today, it’ll be my turn in a couple of weeks… Am I ready for goodbyes?
#logoshope #floatinglibrary #philippines #international #ships #bookfordays
One thing I have to remember. Trust my instinct. Don’t cave in, its only 2 months. Hopefully I look back at this later and not be disappointed of myself.
So July it is :)
Honestly I’m ready to go home. I’m excited to see everyone again. I’m excited for a new beginning. I’m looking forward to my lifestyle changing… I’m just ready for reality :)
I love those types of messages. It just makes you feel like that person really wanted to talk to you so they deliberately try to catch your attention by being random and different so that they’d stick out like a soar thumb. Just the effort and the initiative to start a conversation , its like wow for real?! :)
Once it’s off it’s kinda impossible to turn it back on…
just because I do..
— And even if you’re not physically here with me, I still get some sense of ease and comfort when I hear from you.
When the one who gave you the best feeling came back…
and your mom absolutely likes him.
Take care of yourself out there.
— DOC J.D.
March 23, 2013
Tomorrow’s Graduation DAY
Mom’s almost here, maybe in an hour or so, I can already feel that heavy feeling going away deep inside me. It’s been a long day today running errands chasing after Professors and getting everything signed. ummff…exhausted but I don’t even care… ughh man, I don’t know what it is but I feel like all the stress and worrying from the past year is fading away. I can’t believe I did it. Four years done. Now I have NCLEX to look forward to.. Seems like it was just yesterday when I was crying literally everyday/night because I couldn’t handle being alone out here and begged my mom to take me back home. Definitely had some major depression issues back then, lmao…dayum, I’m still in awe. Idk haha it’s slowly hitting me now….I never realized how much I’ve grown and how independent I became .. omg this is it, it’s actually happening. tomorrow…. tomorrow will be the day…deee day . I can’t even write properly, my feet is all numb from all the walking and my body is all sticky from all the sweating …but right now I feel so good. Anyways thank you Lord for always giving me strength when I needed it the most. . Thank you for blessing me with a hard working filipino mother who raised me well and gave me every ounce of sweat and tears just so I can have the life that she wants for me and thank you for surrounding me with so many different people who have taught me everything from good and bad, pain and pleasure, love and hate, betrayals and loyalty…. I have to admit if it weren’t for me being out here, I can’t imagine who and what type of person I would be right now, or how my life would be like. I have no regrets for sticking through and living out here. I like who I have grown to be and who know’s what’s planned ahead of me but no matter what it maybe I’m ready…. :D
3 more days
and I’m still stressing and sweating my butt off. I really can’t feel the excitement yet with all this work to be done. Anyways I’m really thankful so far for having such great luck bumping into people who are willing to help me out. Thanks to Xander a lad nursing student hanging out at the ITRMC DR area, who offered to take me all the way to CHO and get 2 cord care /newborn case slips. And then took me back to campus to take care of my exit clearance. Thanks to him I didn’t have to take my completion duty that day, or else I’d still be working at the hospital tonight. Thanks to Rainnier and Rode May, I wouldn’t be able to get the information I needed for my DR templates. And most of all thank you Lord for answering my prayers and coincidentally letting me cross path with the right people who are patient enough and generous enough to help little procrastinator me. hahaha. alrighty then back to work…….NO SLEEP TONIGHT
Sometimes I wonder if all that you tell me is true…sometimes I wonder if what you say you feel is real… Sometimes I find myself wanting to believe you… But then I remembered that hoping can lead to expectations which leads to disappointment which leads to pain… So sometimes I let myself warm up to you because it feels good and sometimes I let myself miss you because I really do…but most of the time I turn my back and get cold on you. I don’t want to get used to something, something I know that will make me happy one day….and that right there is hoping.